The Great Things

I want to do something great. Big. I guess that means I want to do something that gets noticed – in a good way of course.

And while I'm happy with what I've accomplished so far, I look to others a lot and wish I could do what they're doing, in certain instances. I know the perceived picture is rarely the real picture, but it still gets me thinking. For instance, I stumbled upon Paul Becker's website this morning, and found out he's only 24 years old! Wow! And he's getting paid to choreograph some pretty amazing shows. I felt a pang because at one point, that's why I danced. Because I loved making up the dances...pure and simple...and I decided that I will dance and choreograph as long as possible.  And of course, that's why I still have an attachment to my dance group now, but maybe it's not exactly what I want it to be. I think it has the potential to be something fantastic, but that brings me to a whole another issue (lack of commitments by some...I'm not forcing anyone to do anything people, jeez! Be there only if you want to be there.) Anyway, I'm jealous of Paul. I want to choreograph on a world stage. I know I could. I'll start by continuing my choreo now I suppose. The more I can get it out there, the better chance I have. I had a lot of fun starting our new jazz number on Sunday, and J's lyrical solo looked awesome. And bottom line, I do love it. That's why we do what we do, right?

Though it's not just to do with dance either. My friend K moved to Toronto, and that made me question my decision to stay in Edmonton for a looooong time, considering Trav's job. I know there's so many amazing things to see out there, so is it worth it to stay in one spot?

I guess right now it comes down to dance and travel – the two things I want to explore more. There's also things I haven't dabbled in much, if at all, that I could see myself doing. I love wedding planning! Lame, I know. Everything about it – I seriously can't get enough of all these amazing wedding blogs though. I almost want to create one myself, but then I KNOW I would spend way to much time on it. I barely write enough here as is! Along with that, I love photography. I remember taking my Grandma's camera when I was little and wandering around the yard taking pictures of Mom's flowers...bleeding hearts I remember best. I would love to experiment, take some classes. I also have a passion for home decorating – it just turns out to be a little costly. Those DIY makeover mags from Home & Garden are so fun though. Oh! And fashion! I LOVE designing looks...often, that's how I fall asleep – by letting clothes pop into my head. And wedding dresses! How fun would it be to design wedding dresses! Ok, ok, enough rambling. Those are my aspirations for now.

As for writing, I'm pretty happy with where I'm at. Work is going well, and it looks like I might be writing another feature for 24 Hours, which would be fab. More to put in the portfolio.

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On the everyday front, here's the update:

SICK

For the most part, since I had my wisdom teeth out last Wednesday, I've been soooooo sick. Obviously sore from the surgery, then throwing up constantly from the anaesthetic, and being a gross bum all around. But then, just as I was feeling better, I got hit by either food poisoning or the flu. Either way, it wasn't pretty. My stomach is still achy and my teeth still hurt, but I'm on my way back I think! I think I've lost a few pounds...I know it's wrong because it's from sickness...but I wonder if I can maintain this weight?

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My 24 Hours article ran! They chopped it up a bit, but didn't alter too much. Yay! I've got the cheque in my hot little hands...which I certainly need at this point. For some reason, my finances took a bit of a dive this month. Freelance writing = bliss? Maybe one day!