Craving...

J. Brand jeans. I tried them on in Kelowna but I'm yet to own a pair. They fit like a dream. So slimming and simple. The only sucky part (and it's really not that sucky) is they fit two sizes bigger. I'm a size what now?!

Boots. I have two pairs, my blue over-the-knees from Le Chat, and my brown Kenneth Cole lace-ups. But I want more! Mostly flat ones. I have heels; I need flatties for work to be comfortable...right?

Ritter chocolate. (Marzipan was on sale today!) Even though my tummy aches I bought it.

Kelsey's spinach dip. Delish. If you haven't tried it, go. Now. I think Travis is taking me tonight...one of our favourite dates! No shame, no shame.

The Great Things

I want to do something great. Big. I guess that means I want to do something that gets noticed – in a good way of course.

And while I'm happy with what I've accomplished so far, I look to others a lot and wish I could do what they're doing, in certain instances. I know the perceived picture is rarely the real picture, but it still gets me thinking. For instance, I stumbled upon Paul Becker's website this morning, and found out he's only 24 years old! Wow! And he's getting paid to choreograph some pretty amazing shows. I felt a pang because at one point, that's why I danced. Because I loved making up the dances...pure and simple...and I decided that I will dance and choreograph as long as possible.  And of course, that's why I still have an attachment to my dance group now, but maybe it's not exactly what I want it to be. I think it has the potential to be something fantastic, but that brings me to a whole another issue (lack of commitments by some...I'm not forcing anyone to do anything people, jeez! Be there only if you want to be there.) Anyway, I'm jealous of Paul. I want to choreograph on a world stage. I know I could. I'll start by continuing my choreo now I suppose. The more I can get it out there, the better chance I have. I had a lot of fun starting our new jazz number on Sunday, and J's lyrical solo looked awesome. And bottom line, I do love it. That's why we do what we do, right?

Though it's not just to do with dance either. My friend K moved to Toronto, and that made me question my decision to stay in Edmonton for a looooong time, considering Trav's job. I know there's so many amazing things to see out there, so is it worth it to stay in one spot?

I guess right now it comes down to dance and travel – the two things I want to explore more. There's also things I haven't dabbled in much, if at all, that I could see myself doing. I love wedding planning! Lame, I know. Everything about it – I seriously can't get enough of all these amazing wedding blogs though. I almost want to create one myself, but then I KNOW I would spend way to much time on it. I barely write enough here as is! Along with that, I love photography. I remember taking my Grandma's camera when I was little and wandering around the yard taking pictures of Mom's flowers...bleeding hearts I remember best. I would love to experiment, take some classes. I also have a passion for home decorating – it just turns out to be a little costly. Those DIY makeover mags from Home & Garden are so fun though. Oh! And fashion! I LOVE designing looks...often, that's how I fall asleep – by letting clothes pop into my head. And wedding dresses! How fun would it be to design wedding dresses! Ok, ok, enough rambling. Those are my aspirations for now.

As for writing, I'm pretty happy with where I'm at. Work is going well, and it looks like I might be writing another feature for 24 Hours, which would be fab. More to put in the portfolio.

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On the everyday front, here's the update:

SICK

For the most part, since I had my wisdom teeth out last Wednesday, I've been soooooo sick. Obviously sore from the surgery, then throwing up constantly from the anaesthetic, and being a gross bum all around. But then, just as I was feeling better, I got hit by either food poisoning or the flu. Either way, it wasn't pretty. My stomach is still achy and my teeth still hurt, but I'm on my way back I think! I think I've lost a few pounds...I know it's wrong because it's from sickness...but I wonder if I can maintain this weight?

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My 24 Hours article ran! They chopped it up a bit, but didn't alter too much. Yay! I've got the cheque in my hot little hands...which I certainly need at this point. For some reason, my finances took a bit of a dive this month. Freelance writing = bliss? Maybe one day!

Word of the day: Creative!

I know I should be posting far more often, and also probably sharing some more interesting tidbits...but again, unfortunately, I'm giving you more or less a bit of an air-update. 

I’m somewhat happy to say work has been keeping me busy and not allowing me to spend too much time at my usual internet haunts. ; )

My deadline for my 24 Hours article is tomorrow afternoon. I think I’m ready to go! Last night I managed to drag Travis to a Dance Moves class on the West side so I could snap some pictures for the story, only because I promised that we would see a movie immediately after. And we did! Nick and Nora’s Infinite Playlist. Right now I have mixed feelings about it…but that’s a whole other topic. If you see it, let me know what you think!

Mostly I’ve been trying to be uber creative...haha, easy right? I have a few projects happening at work that ALL revolve around brainstorming…which is actually quite a rarity. It’s what all creatives types hope for, but it can be quite daunting. Give me the RFP to edit! Sure, it’s boring, but it’s safe – I guess that’s what makes creativity exactly what it is: you just can’t be safe; you have to take risks. And that can be a little scary. But often fun.

All I can say is this: I’m getting sooooo frustrated with clever Christmas cards (or lack thereof!) I’ll let you know how it plays out. I do have what looks like a great book on how to get the creative juices flowing (A Whack on the Side of the Head by Roger Von Oech); I just need to read it!

And speaking of creativity…how thankful am I for creative friends! Meaghan did our engagement photoshoot on Saturday morning, and she was amazing!!! I’m so impressed. Not only that, I think we had the most beautiful, colourful, sunny and crisp fall day of the year! Trav’s Mom commented on the cool angles of the shots; everyone's feed back has been great. It's funny, because every person that's seen them has picked a different favourite. Natalie even said she got teary-eyed. Oh Nat. Check out Meaghan’s photography blog here. She’s definitely got something special on her hands! 

I had to steal one...

On Edge

Go go go!

I almost feel like I don't have time to breathe right now! Just a lot of obligations. It's weird – I feel busier now than I did when I was working two extra part-time jobs! I suppose I'm doing more choreography now...and spending my extra time planning the wedding. Or it could just be that these couple of months are a little wacky.

I ordered my wedding dress this last weekend! I can't reveal what it looks like...it's a surprise! I'm still not sure if it's the one; when I was in Denilore I tried a new one they had in and loved it too. Although, I think my mind was playing tricks on me, and I've made the right decision. It's not supposed to come in until March. Hopefully I'll be even more excited by then!

I've had plans every night this week and still haven't had a chance to work on our renovations, which I feel a little guilty about since Travis worked so hard on it last week. It's my turn to step up and do some dapping and painting, but I just can't seem to find a moment to get it going! I'm hoping Monday night is doable – tonight I've got bootcamp and then a birthday party at Hudson's, tomorrow night is our epic dance girls' Sex and the City Party, Saturday morning is engagement photos, afternoon yoga (I need to make up for my hellish performance last weekend...thanks McDonalds!) and a stagette, and Sunday is A LOT of dance. Hopefully Monday night can be all reno stuff. Wow – I just read all of that, and most of those are social activities which means I could probably opt out of at least one...oh well, making up for lost time, right? I've spent a fair share of my time holed up in my room with fashion magazines. Although, I do kinda miss it. I've got a stack of five I haven't even looked at!

FYI: Fries + Hot Yoga = Do Not EVER Mix